Monday, August 29, 2011
I get this feeling that im kidding myself. I probably wouldn't even be worthy enough.
@ 10:43 PM
Friday, July 22, 2011
hey.
felt like shit for the entire week.
because i was sick and i was in a big whirlpool of thoughts and emotions that even im being creeped out by myself.
i realised im worrying about an issue that is completely out of my control and im overreacting about something that i shouldnt have read too much into.
and im also creeped out by the fact that im becoming desperate. again.
but thankfully i have great people around me who stuck with me through this week =D.
now my head is a little less fuzzy and im now able to see the bigger picture. i realised that im making myself to be a complete douchebag in front of people by being desperate for stuff. makes me feel pathetic.
but im going to be alright, because i know i have friends i can count on, and i can finally sort out my priorities and know what i should be doing.
like my friends' words of advice to me, ill go with the flow and just take whatever that comes at me.
and those lemons that life threw at me, imma use them to burn their houses down >=(.
bye.
@ 8:29 PM
Monday, July 11, 2011
hey.
its not an angry post and yet i still use the same kind of greeting every time. win.
oh well. here to talk about the better things in my life after ranting about shit. thanks for listening anyways. lepak must be really happy because its always tagging my tagboard.
anyways, i got something cool for myself:
I GOTZ MESEL NEW IPODZ =DD.
its a granite-coloured ipod nano. very small and compact. and with multi-touch screen =DD.
costs 216 bucks because i bought it from audio house during their discount period =DD.
so now i have a cool new toy that also looks good on me hehe.
btw anyone should have realised that im really running out of things to blog about. i think its because im so busy and im more towards reblogging stuff on tumblr now. lepak be sad.
bye. first real single goodbye for my blog posts lol.
OR IS IT.
bye. for real.
@ 8:01 PM
hey.
being really busy nowadays. assignments piling up like death mountain in front of my face.
and being easily frustrated over shit doesnt help with completing any of them lol.
oh well.
anyways im blogging for the sake of blogging. im gonna change my blogskin soon if possible too. good practice for my web design module along the way, if i have the time.
i guess being poor sucks hell. and there isnt much hope in getting out of this shit hole soon once you are in it. not even abilities. not even luck.
because getting mad over lemons works the same as making lemonade. they dont work against life.
and things take time. thats when the abilities come in. and that bit of luck that will push you through to a better place in the end.
but im still gonna get mad and fuck the shit out of life. because im not a wuss. and id rather get mad than to resign to fate.
if i have a bright future ahead of me, then good for me. if im going to be poor my whole life, then it cant be helped because it will prove that life is a fucking cunt.
bye.
less angry blog post in 5 minutes. thanks for hearing me rant.
and lepak is the best. cuz its always spamming on my tagboard.
bye. until later.
@ 7:45 PM
Saturday, July 2, 2011
hey.
probably gonna be half KO-ed with a flu soon.
and im thinking life fucking hates me nowadays. things going wrong all over the place lol.
and being a poor faggot really sucks. like fucking suck dick kind of suck.
and if you are poor, you will probably be put into the FOREVER ALONE zone for the rest of your life.
why?
because you dont have the luxury of being able to care for a person and go for dates that dont take place in coffee shops and fast food restaurants.
and also because all your life you will have to work hard for things that you will never get. and you will have no choice but to work so hard even though nothing good comes to you in the end.
basically it means poor faggots have no life so they belong in the FOREVER ALONE zone.
and i dont know why the fuck am i being especially desperate nowadays lol.
oh well.
bye.
btw being born in a rich family is a sure guarantee that you get to make sure poor faggots never get a life. thanks.
bye. for real.
@ 9:37 PM
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
hey.
feeling very demoralised right now. dont know why. i just do.
and i realised nothing takes me seriously. not that they ever did, but im feeling very fustrated about it these few days.
and i also realised that no matter what you achieve, as long as its an achievement then people will hate you for it.
damned man.
and if you are a bloody poor faggot, then people will find it an obligation to make sure you stay that way and know your place to never challenge your social standing ever.
really hate being poor. like fucking hate it.
bye.
@ 12:33 AM
Sunday, June 19, 2011
hey.
dont have to guess why im back on my blog. its obvious.
im having holidays again.
kind of glad i have a 2 week vacation period right now. even though i have to work on weekends. oh well.
at least i enjoy working at Kinokuniya =D.
anyways, i should probably do a summary of what the hell happened during my most recent hiatus:
1. learnt to juggle school with work. it was really tiring in the beginning. i even had an ulcer outbreak all over my mouth and felt like shit for a week. but i pulled through. so im a big boy now XDD.
2. met many new and interesting people at Kinokuniya. theres this old woman who talks to herself a lot and sort of cant stop talking the moment she starts explaining about something. but shes nice. my managers are also fun people to work with. and my fellow cashiers are nice to me =D.
3. got obsessed with minecraft. again. and i started a multiplayer server to play with my friends. now we have a city on a mountain overhang and a railway station below. epic. and very no life.
4. someone fucking took/stole my macbook charger. im going more towards the lines of stealing because it was safely kept in my bag and it never came out of it. and it just disappeared. thank victor for helping me find a spare charger from his girlfriend's workplace =D. and i hope the bloody motherfucker son of a bitch who stole my charger gets herpes. and cancer. and flu.
5. im beginning to feel a little lonely from being single. haiz. oh well.
6. school assignments isnt that hard of a thing to do. mainly because i can ace programming with my eyes closed and the rest are pretty fun to do. other than 3d modelling.
7. im becoming a little obsessed with my colleague's beautiful voice. and her personality is really nice too. and i probably wont be able to meet her again soon ;_;.
8. fuck i sound so desperate in 5 and 7. shit. my colleague better not see this. or im screwed. lol.
9. im a little less poor now. but im still fucking poor. contradicting sentence is contradicting. at least i get to buy new stuff once a month now =DD.
10. i should be sleeping now because its 1am and im gonna do the morning shift next. lol.
there. 10 points to summarise what happened during my hiatus. short and sweet. because i need to sleep now.
bye.
and dont tell my colleague that i said her voice is beautiful. you might end up getting diabetes. and measles.
i kid =D. BUT DONT TELL HER OKAY.
bye. for real. like all my blog posts do. say bye more than once. lol.
k bye. seriously.
@ 12:59 AM